i hate this world. all it is is a planet that is dying slowly, taking us all with it. it sacrifices our lives so that it may live on. call it gaia's vanity. i do.

"misery. you insist that the weight of the world should be on your shoulders"--metallica

this is going to be a page full of my bitching about whatever the hell i feel life. so either get used to it or leave. either is fine with me. but don't say i didn't warn you. actually, go ahead if you want to, i don't give a shit.

now you might be reading htis and thinking that i am a pessimist. well you're wrong. you probably normally are. but i am not a pessimist. i am a realist. i see that the world really sucks, no matter what others might tell you. people try to glaze the world over with icing and lollipops, but once you reap what few benefits the world haas to offer, then you're stuck with a pile of nothing.

ok. read my complaints and all the other fun things in life

so, my first complaint to the world deals with the animal-rights activists. not those little people out there that eat animals and love it. my problem with the activists is that i am sick of being yelled at for eating as i please.if a person thinks that animals have the right to live, then why don't plants? i know, let me guess, plants don't have feelings. well, yowho think that i am in the wrong, who are you to judge that? do you go out and talk to plants? do you hug trees? if trees can give out such high energy to others, such as willow t4rees being able to cure headaches, the why wouldn't that same tree feel? there was an article in some newspaper that once reported that there was a pleach plantation in florida where the peaches all cried when they were picked. people seem to think that plants don't have feelings. where does this idea come from? the fact that they don't make sound? they do. if you sit in the woods long enough, you can hear the trees talk.no, i am not on acid, or any other drug, and i am not just stupid. plants can speak. so, next tiime you little veggie-activists bite into s delectable apple or pear, think of those poor little peaches crying as they lse their life. and you can't asy that the conditions in the slughter houses is horrible. my friend once worked in a cow slaughter house. the cows never even knew that they were dying, because they are knocked out first, so that they cannot feel pain so there goes another little theory of yours.

my next grievance is the right-to-lifesr. especially the female ones. themen that think that abortion is wrong can be explained by the fact that men are subordinate to women, the obvious superiority. but what right do they have to decide that a woman HAS to cary a child inside her for nine months, feeling all the backaches, the nausea, everything that comes with pregnancy, only to have achild that they didn't want to havce, either because they weren't ready to have a child, they couldn't support a child, or they just didn't want one. only 9% of the women that would have chosen abortion if they had been able, but had their children for some unknown reason later are happy with the decision to have the child after all. and as to the female supporters of right to life, i am almost ashamed to be called female if i am gropued with them. how could any living, sane women choose to let a man tell her that abportion is not moral and that she has to have a child. who gives someone the right to choose what happens to her body? the pregnant woman. i say, hey. as long as this person wants to have this child, then that's fine. but don't force others to. and as to the child having feelings and being able to experience things, then when a person is told that a baby that is aborted is already able to think and process, then it is a load of shit. the only way that a doctor will abort a child, unless it must be aborted due to medical reasons, is if the child has not developed a brainstem. after 5 months, when the brian stem is formed, then abortion is allowed. until a person has a brainstem, then all it is is a dead embryo, not a baby. but i have to say, the thing that pisses me off the most about the antiabortion campaign is the constant thought of "if we enundate a person with enough propaganda, then they'll believe us. i personally do not like to go to school when there are little pictures of dead embryo's outside the windows, and there are people standing around outside that as soon as you climb out of you car, than they start shouting at you that abortion is wrong and that you are a sinner that is going to go staright to hell i8f you have an abortion, or if you let you girlfriend have an abortion, and that if you have sex and get pregenant, then you deserve whatever you get. now i don't know about you, i want to know how they know that people who get abortions will go to hell. it does nmot say in the bible "thou shalt not have an abortion, or you will be sent to the firey pits of hell, to roast on a spik until the end of eternity, under constant torment from satan. now in the first place, i don't believe in satan or hell, so none of that would hold true to me if i DID decide to have an abortion.

that leads me to another complaint. the little christian people. i even have a few friends like this. they are the kind that anything that is against their little beliefs, they think is wrong. they bug the shit out of me. my friend dana constantly yells at my friend grant and i that we are evil because we cuss and because we aren't pure. i smoke, and so they think that is evil also. it makes me so mad. they don't seem to understand the concept that i do not believe in the devil and i don't believe in evil. god, i never realized how much people hate those with different believes. i get so much shit from people because i believe in the good in people, and because i don't believe in evil, i have strangers come up to me in school and ask me, are you that manson fan who doesn't believe in evi? god, that bugs me. in the first place, i don't listen to marilyn manson, nor have i ever. i listen to music that has emotion. i don't think that manson has emotion. in music you have to at least somewhat believe in what you sing. but that's npot the topic right now. to get back on my topic, i really hate the christian people. i am christion myself, in that i believe in god, and i believe in jesus, but that's where it ends. there are all these annoying very christian people at my school, and they always have this look on their face of, oh i'm going to pity you now because your going to hell because you wear a chain and you listen to heavy metal, and that is evil. i bet if i told them about death metal or gwar, they'd faint. but, i'm going to stop on this topic, before i get too many fucking little christian people really pissed at me. i don't like having mail with death threats (which by the way is an unmoral thing to do) or people trying to save my soul. because then i would just have to write them back, citing neitzche ("god is dead") and telling tham that i also believe in reincarnation, and that i truly believe that they have lived enough pure lives to go on to nirvana.

"if jesus christ were to come today, people would not even crucify him. they would ask him to dinner, and hear what he had to say, and make fun of it."--thomas carlylye (1795-1881)

quotes

zach has my real quote book, so many of the good ones aren't going to be in here.

"heaven is an internal thing"--don thompson

"i cannot hear what you are saying because of what you are doing."--confucius

"always assume the worst, then you are never dissappinted"--elizabeth peters

"by trying, we can easily learn to endure adversity, another man's i mean."--samuel clemens

"if a person offends you and you are in doubt as to whether it was intentional or not, do not resort to extreme mearues. simply watch for your chance and hit him with a brick."--samuel clemens

"whenever you find you are the side of the majority, it is time to reform"--samuel clemens

"concerning the difference between the man and the jackass: some deservers hold there isn't any. but his would wrong the jackass."--samuel clemens

"people ought to start dead and then they would be honest so much sooner."--samuel clenens

"get your facts firstand then you can distort them as much as you pleasse."--samuel clemens

"suppoes you were a member of congress, and suppose you were an idiot; but i repeat myself."--samuel clemens

"condemed to violence, arrested by pain inside the soul lies a man insane conceived in anger, addicted to hate the mutated child of a twisted state. a killer's smilewith a psycho star dream behind the mask things aren't what they seem unholy soldier, disciple of sin what kind of mind are you living on? the symbiosis of murder and lies what do i see looking through your disguise? fourth reich dementia, subservient ideals god only knows what your secret conceals"--ozzy osbourne

"find me guilty when true guilt is fro within"--metallica

"the human imagination is a secret place of primitive memories and unconfessed desires."--anne rice, the vampire lestat

"the mind of each man is a savage garden, in which all manner of creatures rise and fall, and anthems are sung and things imagined that must finally be condemed and disavowed."--anne rice, the vampire lestat

"rob the average man of his life illusion and you rob him of his happiness"--henrik ibsen

"the only thing i love of happiness is the fight for it, i care nothing about the possesion of it."--henrik ibsen

"there is no free society without silence"--herbert marcuse

"if god made the world, i would not be that god, for the misery of the world would break my heart."-- arthur scholpenhauer

"the only interesting answers are those which destroy the questions."--susan sontag

"age steals away all things, even the mind"--virgil

"luck is a tag given by the mediocre to account for the accomplishments of genius."--robert a. heinlein

"life is not an exact science-it is an art"--samuel butler

"to fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead."--bertrand bussel

"it's amazing how many people you know that don't know people that you know. it's amazing how many people you don't know that you know know people that you know."--ali smith

"the man who does not believe in miracles is not a realist"--anonymous jew when isreal was becoming a country

"we're all dead in the long run"--anonymous

"speak the truth, but leave immeadiately after."--steven proverb

"the darker the night, the brighter the dawn."--anonymous

"'o all the world is a little queer, except thee and me, and sometimes i wonder about thee."--keri hulme, the bone people

"there is a time when passing through a great light that you pass throught your own shadow."--kerewin holmes, thebone people

"i don't knwo who is the bigger fool; him, for going; you, for following; or me for not leaving you both"--demon"

"by the clock tis day and yet dark night strangles the traveling lamp."--william shakespeare, macbeth

"fair is foul, and foul is fair"--william shakespeare, macbeth

"she should have died hereafter. there would have been time for such a word, tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow creeps in this petty face, til the last syllable of recorded time. and all our yesterdays hath lighted fools, the way to dusty death. life's but a walking shadow, a poor player who struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is headr no more. it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, but signifying nothing."--william shakespeare, macbeth

"cowards die many times beofre their deaths; the valiant never taste of death but once. of all the wonders that i yet have heard, it seems to me most strange that men should fear; seeing that death, a necessary end, will come when it will come."--william shakespeare, julius caesar

"in the desert i saw a creature, naked, bestial who, squatting upon the ground, held his heart in his hands, and ate of it. i said, 'is it good, friend?' 'it is bitter--bitter,' he answered. 'but i like it becaus e it is bitter, and becuase it is my heart."--stephen crane